Sunday, April 10, 2011

Wah I wanna die ady

my brain is gonna explode soon. Had to stop before it explodes, or else my roommate's gonna have a hard time cleaning up the mess.

I ran just now - from the spot of the lorong leading up to my room to the end of the lorong, stretched, and ran back to the spot. I think all it took was 10 seconds. Hahaha.

I need a cute notebook to jot down my wonderful random thoughts. Finally the randomness is back!

But very scared la exam is in freaking 8 days I've studied almost everything (I think) but nothing seems to be inside this pea brain :( Need to upgrade brain capacity.

Oiii why my movies are not downloading wannn!

My laptop, minus the battery, is sitting on top of the cooling pad on top of a pink file on top of my bed. I'm sitting on the floor typing this out. The spot on my table where the laptop used to reside is occupied by my Organic Chemistry notes and past year papers.

I can't believe it isn't even 6pm. Feels like an eternity sitting at the desk stuffing my peabrain like yong tau foo ahhhhh.

The Bonesetter's Daughter is really nice. I read it during breakfast every morning. About 1/5th more to go.

I was just done searching for the beneficial effects of green tea in Google scholar, and also why it poses such a great diuretic effect on human *cough. Apparently it contains this compound theophylline which will increase blood flow to the kidneys, hence more wastes enters the urine and voila.

After my stretches it's back to studying again *cringe

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


I am enjoying at home, literally stuffing edible stuff into my teeny tummy 24/7. I think it's a subconscious thing, that I want to bring back as much stuff as I can with me back to uni (even if it will be excreted soon enough). But still the body shape is very very important. MUST CONTROL MUST CONTROL.

I am not making much progress at home *cough. Would rather read the newspaper word by word every morning till 12pm or reading 亦舒's novels instead of my notes wtf. Yeah speaking of 亦舒 I would probably need to invest in some light readings like chic lit or Ladybird kids series or something. Sometimes I look at the books I have in my room and I immediately feel so sien. Studies is already heavy enough, and now I wanna add some more weight?! Lol.

I'm really full, but I guess I'll help myself with another biji humongous orange.

Friday, April 1, 2011

This week


Break from editing my assignment. I think I should get myself a liniment (liquid or semi-solid preparation to be massaged onto the skin for analgesic or soothing effect) or something.

I had Baskin Robbins twice in 2 days! Wednesday - we wanted to get the Pink Day promotion thing, mana tau the 31st promotion was available as well! Shiok. Thursday - cuz it's 31st la :D Yummms to Chocolate Mint and Cookies n' Cream!

Sang k at QB yesterday with Miao Hui, Kok Lun and Tui Ho. Even though each of us only paid RM10+ we sang only 2 hours! Tak shiok laa! :(

Later that we had dinner at Kim Gary, and I had 檀岛咖啡 so bitter lol, less milk than 鸳鸯 I guess. I forgot that it had been quite some time since I've taken caffeine (tea), so I ended up sleeping at 5am last night -__-;; I went to bed at about 2am, and after 40 minutes I got up and continue with my editing, and after about 1 hour I reckoned I was finally getting sleepy, so I went back to bed. Mana tau I got more energetic in bed. Fineee I got up and facebooked lol. And then at 5am I finally felt sleepy lol, and woke up 11am today hahaha.

I woke up to heavy drizzle! What a bliss to wake up in the rain :) It calms and energises me at the same time! Rainy season should not be wasted in bed :)

Later Manhattan for RM6.99 Fish n' Chips! :D

Also I have to mention about my book shopping trip at Pulau Tikus.

Yeahhhh I bought books hehehehe.

  • Saira Ahmed - Disgraced (too tragic not to buy)
  • Jhumpa Lahiri - Unaccustomed Earth (short stories)
  • Helen DeWitt - The Last Samurai (seems funny)
  • Tash Aw - The Harmony Silk Factor (just cuz it's only RM5 due to its less-than-perfect condition hahahaha.)
  • Gao Xingjian - One Man's Bible (as above)
  • Some IQ book I bought on impulse! Got addicted to this IQ riddle already haha.


I think, I did really badly in my quizzes and practical test :( Sux.

Monday, March 28, 2011

I've been thinking a lot lately, like,

In Our Tears, Secret Garden @ bilik bacaan

...for example, how similar some of us are. I know of this quiet girl who hails from a faraway land. Really, really quiet. She can sit opposite of you during lunch and not speak of a word. She can stand beside you and not speak a word. And really, really shy. She might not have the courage to say 'hi' to you if she doesn't know you, or even if she's a mutual friend. She is just... so quiet. But that doesn't mean she's just as peaceful on the inside. She contains everything of her, her thoughts her feelings her opinions the words she wants to say the words she does not want to say, inside this big ocean of hers. At usual times, it is peaceful. The sea breeze blows, the waves hit the shore. Listen to the peace. During quiet times, or when there is a slight trigger, the ocean becomes unrest, chaotic, hellish, and does not stop until the next day.

Fragile, so, so fragile.

All she wants is someone who is willing to listen to her, who is willing to stay beside her during lonely times. All she wants is a friend.


...for example, love is such a mysterious thing. So many emotions can be triggered just by the sound of the word, let alone gestures. The sweet nothings, verbally and non-verbally; the touch and body and eye contact; the strange "cycle" lol; the need to get hold of your cellphone 24/7; the random thought of that individual 24/7; dates that seem perfectly normal and even mundane to everyone else on earth except them. Why do people need such a person (besides survival of the species lol)? How long should pursuing be before acceptance? How should one behave when together? Do they pay each other's share? What is the right age to have such a person in your life? Is it even necessary? Should people kiss-and-tell for the sake of having something to talk about during pillow talk and truth-or-dare?

Mom, you have nothing to worry about. Your daughter is very guai here. Hahahaha.


...for example, is this feeling I'm getting once in a while homesick? If you don't already know, I'm obsessed with my Gmail account. I love Gmail. Google ftw! I'm also in love with my Nokia E5. I think it rocks big time. But love and obsession are two totally different things. I check my inbox and phone every hour to see if I receive an email or call or message from home. Maybe it's about something really serious like unable to open the file on the computer; maybe it's about something as trivial as baking egg tarts OMGGGG!; maybe it's just a random thought, "hey something just reminded me of you" (thought this hasn't happened yet).

Other strange obsessions recently: soup!, dinner at a round table with a big gang; reading newspaper and doing sudoku very leisurely every moring for an hour or two; have unlimited supply of apples and fresh milk and cereals!; have different breakfast everyday (not that I'm getting bored with PB sandwich).

I miss all the black beans and peanuts and lotus root!


...for example, friends. Of course, now I don't search for the definition of friends, because deep down I know what it means. Even if I'm unable to say it out in words, I know how having friends feels like. It's so strange, y'know, that some people seems to be able to make friends with anyone on earth in a snap of the finger. That's like, a million billion trillionth fraction of the time I need. Often I find it unfair. Why is it that I take such a long time while for the others it's so damn easy? Am I destined to lead my whole life (or at least, for this 3+ years) like this omgwhataterriblethought?

Some people have like skyhigh EQ maaaan! They have sooo much to share, sooo much capacity to contain everything of you, sooo much heart to love you! How do people managed to do that! *salute


And of course, what is it in a person that can and cannot be changed? How does one knows what he can or cannot change? How long should change occur? Does one have to not become himself in order to become someone he wants to be? Is it worth it to take the dare and lose yourself for a moment to become the self you want to be, and you're not sure yet whether you'll like it when you're the person you want to be?


Cluttered mind.

Back to study.

Sunday, March 27, 2011


It's such a nice weather out there but I'm so lazy to run! *lazybum

Maybe I'll do some stretches instead. Or yoga. Mmmmm that sounds good.

Friday, March 25, 2011

F6 CNY gathering

First stop: Murni @ Aman Suria for dinner and yee sang!

It was surprising for me to actually see so many turned up, some I have not seen since September last year! Basically some still look the same, ADS became more muscular hahahaha, and YC came right after she reached home! Sadly I didn't speak much to some people :/ Ah but well, there's always a next time! :)

Next stop: Zuo Hao's, cuz he didn't turn up for the dinner haha. He remembered the wrong date!

全家福!<3 The edited (more nostalgic-looking) photo is my desktop wallpaper! :)
Still love the seaweed biscuits! :D

Last stop: SMay's for Sushi King's yee sang haha! SMay's sister mom even served us wine! I don't like wine.

Lara 梁心頤—我不再怕

雖然想起你心還是會揪 雖然深夜並沒那麼好過
勇敢是我對自己的承諾 再想念也不會回頭
一直不敢去面對的寂寞 習慣就好也沒那麼難受